tallulah bankhead's last words

"codeine..... bourbon....."

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time

the only song lyrics that genuinely terrify me:

"ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
waiting for someone or something to show you the way

tired of lying in the sunshine
staying home to watch the rain
but you are young and life is long
and there is time to kill today

and then one day you find
ten years have got behind you
no one told you when to run
you missed the starting gun

and you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking
racing around to come up behind you again
the sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
shorter of breath and one day closer to death

every year is getting shorter
never seem to find the time
plans that either come to nought
or half a page of scribbled lines

hanging on in quiet desparation is the english way
the time is gone

the song is over
thought i'd something more to say"

and again

today was a good day. i drove at 100km/h for the first time, and my dad gave me two kodak box brownies dating back to 1929 and 1946 respectively. i also made this video last night because i was really bored. i watched fight club and now this is my favourite haiku:

worker bees can leave
even drones can fly away
the queen is their slave

so happy

you deserved this so much <3
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disorder

"the condition of true shyness may simply involve the discomfort of difficulty in knowing what to say in social situations, or may include crippling physical manifestations of uneasiness. shyness usually involves a combination of both symptoms, and may be quite devastating for the sufferer, in many cases leading them to feel that they are boring, or exhibit bizarre behavior in an attempt to create interest, alienating them further. behavioral traits in social situations such as smiling, easily producing suitable conversational topics, assuming a relaxed posture and making good eye contact, which come spontaneously for the average person, may not be second nature for a shy person. such people might only effect such traits by great difficulty, or they may even be impossible to display.

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shyness is considered to be a neutral personality trait by people who are not shy, but a very negative trait by those who are shy themselves. in fact, those who are shy are actually perceived more negatively because of the way they act towards others. shy individuals are often distant during conversations, which may cause others to create poor impressions of them, simply adding to their shyness in social situations ... to an unsympathetic observer, a shy individual may be mistaken as cold, distant, arrogant or aloof, which can be frustrating for the shy individual."

kids

one of the most amazing, beautiful, horrifying movies i have ever seen

home, home again

oxford street, leicester square, regent street, trafalgar square, piccadilly circus. tate modern, national gallery, tower bridge, big ben, london eye, tower of london. london, bath, stratford, lakes district, manchester. charles dickens, jane austen, thomas hardy, william wordsworth, charlotte/emily/anne bronte.

god it feels awful to be back in fucking australia.