a deeply superficial person

i don't understand when people say that andy warhol was a hack, that his work was meaningless. that's the idea, i thought. confronting the world with the lack of meaning, the purposelessness inherent in life itself, just its utter emptiness. you can look into marilyn's eyes but her gaze is unfocused and vague, a sort of thousand yard stare that goes on forever into complete nothingness. it's just the surface laid bare with nothing underneath. because that's what life is, isn't it? i think it's beautiful.

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"if you want to know all about andy warhol, just look at the surface of my paintings and films and me, and there i am. there's nothing behind it."

- andy warhol

lost in space

“everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. the best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.” - daniel handler

"choking with dry tears and raging, raging, raging at the absolute indifference of nature and the world to the death of love, the death of hope and the death of beauty, i remember sitting on the end of my bed, collecting these pills and capsules together and wondering why, why when i felt i had so much to offer, so much love, such outpourings of love and energy to spend on the world, i was incapable of being offered love, giving it or summoning the energy with which i knew i could transform myself and everything around me." - stephen fry

"i'm the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing always, forever fading away and receding farther and farther into the background. just like the cheshire cat, someday i will suddenly leave, but the artificial warmth of my smile, that phony, clownish curve, the kind you see on miserably sad people and villains in disney movies, will remain behind as an ironic remnant. i am the girl you see in the photograph from some party someplace or some picnic in the park, the one who is in fact soon to be gone. when you look at the picture again, i want to assure you, i will no longer be there. i will be erased from history, like a traitor in the soviet union. because with every day that goes by, i feel myself becoming more and more invisible." - elizabeth wurtzel

favourite painting + favourite quote

transfiguration by raphael

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"he who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. and when you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you."

- nietzsche
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la la la life is good again

my love for edie sedgwick will never die

ciao! manhattan

is on youtube in its entirety. go go go and hit that shit up before it gets deleted for copyright or gratuitous nudity. kind of an awful movie but edie is mesmerising as always. i took some stillz

she was sssssssso beautiful but i guess you already know that

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like a rolling stone

i don't think i'll ever stop being fascinated by edie sedgwick.

once upon a time you dressed so fine
you threw the bums a dime in your prime, didn't you?
people'd call, say, "beware doll, you're bound to fall"
you thought they were all kiddin' you
you used to laugh about
everybody that was hangin' out
now you don't talk so loud
now you don't seem so proud
about having to be scrounging for your next meal

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how does it feel
how does it feel
to be without a home
like a complete unknown
like a rolling stone?

you've gone to the finest school all right, miss lonely

but you know you only used to get juiced in it

and nobody has ever taught you how to live on the street

and now you find out you're gonna have to get used to it

you said you'd never compromise

with the mystery tramp, but now you realize

he's not selling any alibis

as you stare into the vacuum of his eyes

and ask him do you want to make a deal?

how does it feel

how does it feel

to be on your own

with no direction home

like a complete unknown

like a rolling stone?

you never turned around to see the frowns on the jugglers and the clowns

when they all come down and did tricks for you

you never understood that it ain't no good

you shouldn't let other people get your kicks for you

you used to ride on the chrome horse with your diplomat

who carried on his shoulder a siamese cat

ain't it hard when you discover that

he really wasn't where it's at

after he took from you everything he could steal

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how does it feel

how does it feel

to be on your own

with no direction home

like a complete unknown

like a rolling stone?

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princess on the steeple and all the pretty people

they're drinkin', thinkin' that they got it made

exchanging all kinds of precious gifts and things

but you'd better lift your diamond ring, you'd better pawn it babe

you used to be so amused

at napoleon in rags and the language that he used

go to him now, he calls you, you can't refuse

when you got nothing, you got nothing to lose

you're invisible now, you got no secrets to conceal
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how does it feel

how does it feel

to be on your own

with no direction home

like a complete unknown

like a rolling stone?

more human than human

i'm a huge fan of the film blade runner. this halloween i'm dressing up as the roxie hart to my best friend's velma kelly, but next year i'm being pris.

"i've seen things you people wouldn't believe. attack ships on fire off the shoulder of orion. i watched c-beams glitter in the dark near tan hauser gate. all those moments will be lost in time ... like tears in rain. time to die."

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before you start you're already beat

i've always been so preoccupied with warhol-era edie sedgwick that i never realised how enchantingly beautiful she was in the last years of her life.

magic marker row

"what’s great about this country is that america started the tradition where the richest consumers buy essentially the same things as the poorest. you can be watching tv and see coca-cola, and you know that the president drinks coke, liz taylor drinks coke, and just think, you can drink coke, too. a coke is a coke and no amount of money can get you a better coke than the one the bum on the corner is drinking. all the cokes are the same and all the cokes are good. liz taylor knows it, the president knows it, the bum knows it, and you know it."

~ andy warhol