slightly bemused by the total rejection

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deus ex machina

i saw this movie but i'm not sure if i like it

but every 13 year old girl and her myspace loves it

i think it was a fabulous mindfuck but my death-fear came back after watching it.

this death-fear is becoming very persistent and worrying, i hope i don't have clinical anxiety or something.

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i don't think i like benson & hedges as much as kents

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want to see dr. strangelove + a million gazillion other things

eg: american beauty

requiem for a dream

dazed and confused

mulholland dr.

candy

lost in translation

the science of sleep

less than zero (once i finish the book)
coffee and cigarettes

fight club (i STILL haven't seen it)

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i don't know how to write a blog that isn't self indulgent
because i am self indulgent

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can't stop listening to i wanna be your dog!

i think it might be the sexiest song i've listened to.

in a really weird way.

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the sprawl

list of things i need:
1. polka dot tights from target
2. pair of black shorts
3. black cardigan that's not too long and not too short (impossible to find!)
4. ankle boots (i wish i'd grabbed the $7 ones from the salvos the other day)
5. big floppy sunhat from big w
6. another pair of stilettos that actually fit
7. a floral summer dress
8. love heart bag from cheap store on swanston
9. plain zip-up hoodie
10. faux fur leopard print coat (IT FEELS LIKE I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOREVER AND IT BREAKS MY HEART)


gave up on buying/making my alice in wonderland costume, ended up being edie sedgwick for halloween instead since it will be the last year i'll have hair short enough to pull it off. i wore 120-denier tights as pants, a long striped top and huge earrings, pinned my hair back to make it look shorter and sprayed it silver with temporary colouring and did full edie make-up complete with beauty spot.

chain-smoked all night, justified it with the "historically accurate costume" excuse.
i had a good time. at these parties i can forget life at school, escape judgement and just have fun.