this song is beautiful

i'm sick and tired of the way that i feel,

i'm always dreaming and it's never for real.

i'm all alone with my deep thoughts,

i'm all alone with my heartache and my good intentions.

i work to eat and drink and sleep just to live,

feels like i'm never getting back what i give.

i've got a sad song in my sweet heart.

and all i really ever need is some love and attention.

and i don't want to cry my whole life through,

i want to do some laughing too.

so come on, come on, come on, come on, laugh with me.

and i don't want to die without shaking up a leg or two,

yeah, i want to do some dancing too.

so come on, come on, come on, come on, dance with me.

sometimes you've just gotta make it for yourself.

sometimes sugar, it just takes someone else.

my mind is going

i watched 2001: a space odyssey today and it is one of the most beautiful things i have ever seen. i can't say i understand everything yet so i will have to watch it a few more times

night comes on

i'm so tired of my moods being so up and down.

i'm so sick of feeling worthless.

more than anything, i wish tomorrow morning i could wake up and be someone else.

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go ask alice

i've changed my mind about the halloween costume, i think i'll go as a slutty alice in wonderland. so pretty similar to this:

but a simpler design, without the extra bows and frills, so it's easier to put together and looks closer to the original, ie this:

i don't have half of the stuff i need for the costume, so i'll be hitting the salvos and st vinnies for:
- a blue dress

- a white apron/white material for a makeshift apron

- over-the-knee white socks

- black ribbon material for bows

- blonde wig

luke john mark matthew

decided my eating habits are getting ridiculous.


sample menu from yesterday:
brunch ~ 5 fried spring rolls
afternoon tea ~ the last spring roll
dinner ~ bowl of chocolate icecream


and sample menu from today:
breakfast ~ 3 pieces wholemeal toast with margarine (better)
lunch ~ bowl of chocolate icecream w/ sprinkles
dinner ~ probably eating leftover chicken wings


+ approx. 7 cups of tea each day


my eating philosophy tends to be, as long as i don't consume more than my usual calorie intake, it's fine. nutritional value is of no consequence, it's all about the calorific value of my food. i'm far too self-indulgent to give up the junk



saw moon today, it was excellent and i highly recommend it to all. pity it's too poorly distributed and low-budget for sam rockwell to get an oscar nod.

going to a halloween party, i might be going as holly golightly. instantly recognizable for those of the bogan persuasion (which comprises most of the invitees) but also a little interesting. i guess pris from blade runner or alex from a clockwork orange shall have to wait until next year
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summer inspiration; debbie harry

rebellion (lies)

well things sort of turned out okay. i am not out of the woods yet but i did not get caught, i have not been suspended, and my dad is the best dad in the world for covering for me.

i continue to astound myself with my ability to weasel my way out of drama

cannot wait for this year to be over. everything has happened to me all at once, it's ridiculous. most of it good, some of it terrible. i'm sick of this school bullshit though, i'm a good girl at heart and i feel like i should start acting like one again.

currently listening to:

white rabbit ~ jefferson airplane

chelsea hotel #2 ~ leonard cohen

i'm so bored with the u.s.a ~ the clash

here comes the summer ~ the undertones

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ridiculously fucked

my school has cracked down on wagging, i've been all but caught and i need to go and do a tearful confession as soon as possible tomorrow if i want my parents to remain in the dark: so far, extremely unlikely that my coordinator will abstain from telling them

i have forged countless notes, wagged countless times, and now i'm fucked. they might even suspend me.

and i have less than a week left of school. what a joke. i cannot believe this has happened, when things were going so well for me. life is a bitch

aw

my facebook activity tonight ~

me: (comments on link posted by friend)
random year 10 girl called isabelle: hi alex, i don't know who you are, but i saw you in the library today and every time i see you around i think 'wow, she's pretty'.sorry if i creeped you out o.O
alex: haha thank you (:

it's the little things.

shopping list

a dress exactly like this one. i don't know why but i'm obsessed with it and i think pixie looks fabulous in it

these adorable gloves

a dress with super long sleeves like the one edie is wearing. probably going to have to make this one

a cassette necklace that i can write my favourite lyrics on

a vintage t-shirt i can tear up and reattach with safety pins etc

this outfit. it's kind of amazing.

be my baby

eewwwww school

homework i have not done these holidays:

- psychology survey. i still have to write the actual survey, survey 15-20 people, write up and graph the results on a scatter-plot, or something like that. due on tuesday (although i'm planning to wag to buy more time, and my teacher's a pushover).

- history essay on socio-cultural movements of the 60s/70s. none of the fun mods-and-rockers stuff, though, it's strictly politically-related movements. due in two weeks.

- literature debate speech. i have it easy, being first speaker, but i still don't know when i will be fucked to write this. due sometime next week.

- study for my health 3/4 SAC. it's not that far away, and being a year 12 subject it actually counts for something. fuck.

homework i have done these holidays:

- .............nah, i got nothing.

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i often wonder whether there is a psychological basis in the phenomenon that time flies when you're having fun?

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currently listening to:

primary colours ~ the horrors

bookends theme ~ simon & garfunkel

hi ho silver lining ~ jeff beck

come monday night ~ god help the girl

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