i've kind of given up on trying to be normal during high school. i'm not going to regularly attend parties. i'm not going to be friends with the people who i think are the coolest. i'm not going to be in a relationship. everything i daydream about is fanciful and silly and will remain just that - a daydream.
all i can hope for is a fresh start once i am out in the real world, assuming anything will change.