Sunday, November 21, 2010

the stranger

"nothing, nothing mattered, and i knew why. so did he. throughout the whole absurd life i’d lived, a dark wind had been rising toward me from somewhere deep in my future, across years that were still to come, and as it passed, this wind leveled whatever was offered to me at the time, in years no more real than the ones i was living. what did other people’s deaths or a mother’s love matter to me; what did his god or the lives people choose or the fate they think they elect matter to me when we’re all elected by the same fate, me and billions of privileged people like him who also called themselves my brothers? couldn’t he see, couldn’t he see that? everybody was privileged. there were only privileged people. the others would all be condemned one day. and he would be condemned, too.”
the stranger, albert camus

do you ever get the feeling while reading something, when all of a sudden you realise that something wonderful is happening, and with every word your life is changing? because i just got that.

Monday, November 15, 2010

summer playlist take 2

1. a minha menina - os mutantes
2. buffalo stance - neneh cherry
3. write about love - belle & sebastian
4. things i did when i was dead - no age
5. c.r.e.a.m. - wu-tang clan
6. silver soul - beach house
7. heartbreaker - girls
8. it takes a muscle - m.i.a.
9. boyfriend - best coast
10. ce jour la - sylvie vartan
11. green eyes - wavves
12. slip inside this house - primal scream
13. rock & roll - the velvet underground
14. teenage spaceship - smog
15. alright - supergrass

2009's summer playlist

Friday, November 12, 2010

touch the sky

okay i lied, i'm back. i had a sudden epiphany, and needed to express the fact that despite the fact that i found the classes incredibly grating and can't do the subjects very well at all and i find them both quite difficult, i will really, genuinely miss literature and philosophy. the subjects themselves and everything we have to study in them are so so beautiful. goodbye keats, aristotle, chekhov, sophocles, murdoch, socrates etc. - sorry for complaining about you for so long, i love you all.

bright star, would i were stedfast as thou art--
not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
and watching, with eternal lids apart,
like nature's patient, sleepless eremite,
the moving waters at their priestlike task
of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
of snow upon the mountains and the moors--
no--yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
to feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
and so live ever--or else swoon to death.

- bright star, john keats

Monday, November 8, 2010

beatniks are out to make it rich

i've got my last two exams conveniently scheduled on the same day - next monday. so far i have been spending my final studying period doing the following:
- drinking tea
- facebook
- going on tumblr
- making myself french toast
- making myself fairy bread
- going for long walks in the sunshine
- browsing various opshops
- not studying

yeeah, need to do something about my motivation levels. especially considering that these are my two most difficult subjects and i got a c+ and b+ on my philosophy and media practice exams, respectively. so i'm taking a leave of absence from this blog until the 15th of november. all things aside from exams, life is good.
currently listening to:
ride a white swan - t. rex
shimmy shimmy ya - ol' dirty bastard
try a little tenderness - otis redding
buffalo stance - neneh cherry

Monday, November 1, 2010


"from my rotting body, flowers shall grow and i am in them and that is eternity."
- edvard munch