in a luminous day-glo shade

pixie's pink rinse is toooo cute.

i know it's a little passe but i think both of these girls are fab.

don't look away

i did something that has made one of my best friends furious at me, and there is nothing i can do to make her forgive me. i often make people angry without meaning to, but this is the most awful experience so far. i can't hold grudges to save my life but i'm terribly afraid of people that can and will do so.

fight club

"you buy furniture. you tell yourself, this is the last sofa i will ever need in my life. buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled. then the right set of dishes. then the perfect bed. the drapes. the rug. then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you."

~ chuck palahniuk

not on rex manning day!

i got my hair cut last weekend and now it kind of looks like this:
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everyone who's commented on it thinks it looks great, but some people can't get over the fact that i'm growing my hair out and they want me to have short hair forever.
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went to another party on friday night, i made lots of new friends but i was a bit wasted and hooked up with someone i shouldn't have, now i'm feeling terribly remorseful. the night after that i slept over at my best friend's house, we made some food that we had seen on thisiswhyyourefat.com - a toasted sandwich with nutella, peanut butter and marshmellow fluff which was delightful and gave us food babies. then we set up a projector in her room and watched bill and ted's excellent adventure and empire records.

grrrr

i can't go and see any films from the anna karina retrospective at the melbourne international film festival because i'm under 18. FML

at least i'm allowed to go and see her being interviewed next saturday. well, i better be.

some candy talking

i've kind of given up on trying to be normal during high school. i'm not going to regularly attend parties. i'm not going to be friends with the people who i think are the coolest. i'm not going to be in a relationship. everything i daydream about is fanciful and silly and will remain just that - a daydream.

all i can hope for is a fresh start once i am out in the real world, assuming anything will change.

women i wish i looked like

brigitte bardot

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marianne faithfull

edie sedgwick

anna karina

nico

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so clearly a beautiful, troubled sixties waif look would be great.

the space between our work and its product

we live as we dream, alone

to crack the shell we mix with the others

some flirt with fascism

some lie in the arms of lovers

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we live as we dream, alone

we live as we dream, alone

we live as we dream, alone

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[...]

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man and woman need to work

it helps us define ourselves

we were not born in isolation

but sometimes it seems that way

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we live as we dream, alone

we live as we dream, alone

we live as we dream, alone

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i can't stand it much longer.

everything will turn out all right

i'm very up and down lately, often i'll be completely depressed at the start of the day and quite cheerful by the end of it or vice versa. mainly i'm just bitter about things that don't really matter in the end.

recently i've also become obsessed with the idea of a tattoo. i want a couple of swallows on each hip or each side of my lower back, i haven't quite decided yet. i also want a second earlobe piercing and maybe an ear cartilage piercing. not too sure why i'm suddenly so interested. perhaps i should hold off the body modification until i'm a little more emotionally stable.

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currently listening to:

chicago ~ sufjan stevens

my boyfriend's back ~ the chiffons

lay lady lay ~ bob dylan

summarize ~ little birdy