Thursday, July 22, 2010

what do you think i'd see

i have come to the realisation that my life is actually driven not by the present, but by the promise of the future. i can't get through the day without fantasizing about school being over, because my dream is transformation. all i can do is hope that the moment i leave school, i will cease to be a complete loser by proxy, and become the future me that i daydream about. it's strange, i don't know if it's quite normal to agonize about the prospect of becoming a different person by a dramatic change in circumstances, but it's what i live for, leaving behind the person i am now.


bobb said...

The person you are now is just fine:)It's normal to think of becoming a different person. It's not leaving the person you are entirely behind. Circumstances will change - though probably not dramatically, and that's a good thing - you will transform and grow.