Thursday, May 26, 2011

ready or not

i can't articulate my feelings about today. i had two separate, both fairly bleak discussions about my views on my life. and one of them was with someone i haven't spoken to properly in ages and it felt beautiful and just like old times, and made me a little sad that he will never be anything more than a friend ever again.
i want to change my life so that i don't feel quite so depressed about it all the time, but i don't know how. i'm not as bad as i used to be, but a lot of things still go wrong for me almost always these days. (and people always tell me that you get what you give, but i try so hard for things, and put in so much effort, and they never work out.)
oh and to 'a friend', i am almost certain i know who you are. and i'm sorry, i was feeling bitter and frustrated and disappointed with everyone. and listening to "why'd ya do it" by marianne faithfull.
i'm sorry my blog is so boring i will try and think of more things to put on it that isn't moodiness or music that i like.


Anonymous said...

I don't think you know who I am. I think we've maybe spoken two sentences to each other ever.

Stay safe Alex.

Until next time,
Da Phantom

alex said...

oh wow.... it's not who i had suspected then. how interesting!

alex said...

wait..... are you the infamous "phantom" who commented on a bunch of people's blogs last year?
if so, i'm flattered that i'm getting such polite correspondence from you, and am intrigued as to who you are!