does the body rule the mind or does the mind rule the body?

"now i’ll never see him again, and maybe it’s a good thing. he walked out of my life last night for once and for all. i know with sickening certainty that it’s the end. there were just those two dates we had, and the time he came over with the boys, and tonight. yet i liked him too much -- way too much, and i ripped him out of my heart so it wouldn’t get to hurt me more than it did. oh, he’s magnetic, he’s charming; you could fall into his eyes. let’s face it: his sex appeal was unbearably strong. i wanted to know him -- the thoughts behind the handsome, confident, wise-cracking mask."- sylvia plath

what a drag it is getting old

spend spend spend!

longish and uninteresting post, sorry

so today is my 17th birthday, and i had a sleepover last night with some friends. we watched pulp fiction, slept for about three hours, woke up and watched inglourious basterds, and then headed off to the camberwell markets for the morning.

i found a little basket for $3 that i intend to use as a 1960s-style woven box bag. since it was originally a sewing basket, however, it was full of tiny, quaint little paper packets of needles, spools of thread measured in yards and a pack of fabric name tapes reading "thais gloster" (and christ knows when the name "thais" was popular). pretty cool that i own the sewing materials of a lady that's probably dead by now, though.


then i found a copy of "james dean is not dead", the title of which is probably unfamiliar to most people, but obsessive morrissey fans like me will recognise the name of one of the short biographies he wrote in the early eighties in the pre-smiths era (the other of which was about the new york dolls). i was practically frothing at the mouth once i found that it was indeed credited to one "steven morrissey" and got it for $5. not bad considering copies go for 60 pounds these days.



the rest of the things i found were pretty boring, just a couple of leather bags for $3 and $6 respectively, a pair of white leather shoes for $15, a flowery swimsuit for $10 and a copy of the wall by pink floyd on vinyl in great condition for $20. i had a good birthday :)
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currently listening to:
oliver's army - elvis costello
end of the world - girls
la la love you - pixies
about you - jesus and mary chain
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ps: i started a formspring! ask me whatever you like :)

i keep mine hidden

up until recently, the song "i keep mine hidden" by the smiths meant little more to me than being the last song they ever recorded. but not long ago i realised how utterly true and relevant the lyrics are to my life, more specifically my almost complete inability to outwardly display emotion.

hate, love and war

force emotions to the fore

but not for me, of course

of course

i keep mine hidden

i keep mine hidden

but it's so easy for you

because you let yours flail

into public view

as you lay in awe on your bedroom floor

couldn't blog last night because i ended up sleeping over at my best friend's house at the last minute, but i'll make up for it today ....

happy 50th morrissey !

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it hasn't been that long since i first started listening to the smiths, truth be told. i only started to get into them at the end of year nine, which was less than two years ago. i have been listening to them, and solo morrissey, heavily ever since.

the first song that i ever heard by the smiths was - bar a cover of how soon is now which was the theme song of charmed back in the day - probably what difference does it make. i heard it, and london on a compilation i bought in year 8, but i didn't actively seek out any more of their music for a while.

when i did, i can vividly remember the first three songs that i downloaded - how soon is now, heaven knows i'm miserable now and last night i dreamt that somebody loved me. out of all of them, it was the last that hit closest to home. it was the last song out of the three that i listened to the whole way through, as i was initially put off by the extended piano intro.

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but once i lay down and listened to the entire song in stunned silence, i realised that this was a band that was completely unlike anything i'd ever heard before - the band that has had the biggest impact on my life before or since.

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