Friday, April 22, 2011

the angels forget to pray for us

“i can never read all the books i want; i can never be all the people i want and live all the lives i want. i can never train myself in all the skills i want. and why do i want? i want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. and i am horribly limited.” - sylvia plath

i feel so lonely, none of my friends ever invite me to things anymore and i don't know whether it's because i've been sick or because they don't like me now. i am so isolated and i don't know what i've done wrong, i wish they would just talk to me, i can't stand being ignored.

"Everything" by Sharon Olds


bobb said...

I'd bet this isolation is a temporary thing. This sounds like a cliche I know, but what about inviting your friends to do something, rather then waiting for them to ask you. maybe you have done this, but in any case it's a good idea to look for new friends. You are at university now? Maybe there are clubs etc. there that you could be a part of.

I do care Alex, and even if these suggestions aren't specifically helpful. I feel confident that things will work out, even if it takes a while.

alex said...

i'm fine, really, i was just feeling a bit depressed and isolated because i've been sick for so long and hadn't seen anyone. but thank you :)